just gotta get this off my chest...

for far too long i clung to a relationship that was..never meant to be. i thought that i could write this perfect love story when in reality i was writing a tragedy. a little birdie dropped by and whispered in my ear quite frequently to give up the pen..but being the stubborn girl i am i refused..i could make it all better..i could force things to work my way. well as most of you know..i was wrong.
i cant exactly pinpoint what it was that convinced me i was strong enough to stand on my own and give the pen back to its rightful owner..but i did..very reluctantly and quite honestly absolutely terrified. i was so sure that i was setting myself up for failure..that not one guy in the world would love me AND my daughter..that my package deal just wasn't gonna work. once again..i was wrong.
just when i least expected it someone absolutely amazing came strolling back into my life as if he had never been absent. truthfully it was a god send..i was terrified that not one guy would love my package deal - he does. no we aren't together..we aren't dating..but he loves us. i know without a doubt he would do anything for her and i and it flatters me more than anyone will truly understand..he makes me happy and he makes me smile. its been so long since the smile on my face was a true genuine smile and i must admit its liberating to smile and know that its because I'm so happy inside its flooding out my face!
the 'he' I'm referring to is my best friend..JJ..Justin..ive known him since my sophomore year of high school. hes amazing and wonderful and i love him to death. he will be a life long friend.
now i don't know where the next chapter of my love story is going but i know that the pen is safe and sound with its rightful owner once more and he has a story already planned that is bigger and better than i could ever imagine.

::samanthalee::

Growing Up

gettin ready to go home from the hospital..

playing in the carseat at home February 2009...
she doesnt ride in this one anymore..

in the bouncy seat April 2008

playing in the bouncy seat before it got taken apart to store better..
February 2009

I love my little girl..but sometimes i wish i could freeze her right where she is...