One Year.

so much happened in one year.
im not sure ill be able to put it all into words, but as always i will try.
a year ago today my daughter made her debut into this world.
and from the very moment i saw her my world was different. okay i know that may sound highly cliche but its the absolute honest truth. The moment the nurse plopped her purple little body on my chest and her tiny little foot went all but up my nose - i was different. not to say that i wasnt different the moment i knew of her existence because i was but the moment of her debut was life altering. the past year has been far from simple but i wouldnt trade it for the universe. watching her grow and learn is amazing. watching her bond with others, watching her charm her way into anything, watching her roll over for the first time then crawl and then walk, watching her teeth slowly and painfully come through watching her react to new foods and new environments - it was and still is completely priceless. now back to the whole im different thing. my thoughts and my actions and not to mention my choices all revolve around her well being. ive learned so much because of her. ive learned to be bold enough to stand and do what needs to be done regardless of if i like it or hate it. ive grown up in big ways. ive transformed from a teenager to a mother and i absolutely love it. and now for the big one, well its big to me - she is my saving grace. i find it funny thats her middle name..well actually its not funny i think it was all in Gods plan. see i let my life plumit to a low i would have never found the courage to crawl out of if it hadnt been for my little girl. she gave me reason to be strong reason i wouldnt have found in myself. her smile made everyday worth it. she made every hard decision easier. i will never be able to explain how astonishing it is to me that when i sinned against God he blessed me with an amazing healthy beautiful baby girl. shes truley the best thing that has EVER happened to me. (aside from God sending his only son to die for me.) this year has definately been a rollercoaster and i have discovered who my true friends are and i have to say thanks to all of you. the ones that were there in the beginning and stuck through it all, the ones who were silently watching and praying, the ones who came at differnt times through the year but love us just like they have been there from day one - you all have a special place in my heart. my daughter means the world to me and to have friends and family who love her and i makes life worth living, it makes everyday worth pushing through. again - thank you all.

happy birthday desirae grace.
mommy loves you baby girl!
i cant wait to see what this next year holds for us.